“You do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What you need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment, and to embrace them with courage, faith and hope.” ~Thomas Merton
After a traumatic event occurs some people will say to go on with life as you normally would. The reality is you won’t. You will stop doing things you love and that’s okay. You can’t go back to how things were and you don’t want to. Now is the time to discover what’s out there for you.
I remember when I stopped competitive running. It was a huge decision for me. It was something I had loved to do such as I was a child, but I knew I had to stop after my trauma. It’s something I knew I just needed to do for myself.
At first I felt guilty about not running. If I wanted to get my life “back together” I thought I had to keep doing the things I loved to do. I don’t think that’s how it always works. You need a routine, but it’s okay to fall apart. Things have changed. You have changed. There’s a lot your mind and body are trying to process. Do what feels good for you.
The more I am “okay “with things, the more I open myself to whatever presents itself, the more I find myself better connected to myself and the world around me. I’m learning to dance wherever I am.
While I took a break from competitive running I started to travel more and discover a world of possibilities that I didn’t know existed for me because I was spending all my extra time competitively running. I loved to run, but I was beginning to realize maybe I didn’t want to continue running in a competitive way. I wanted to find a different flow that was my own.
I started to pick up running again, slowly, as a stress relief during my traveling trips. I was leading groups of students over seas and it was my only time to myself. I started to fall in love with running again, not just because I was good at it, but because it was good for me mentally, physically and emotionally. I took my time finding my healing flow.
Then I discovered cycling and wow did that open up my world! Every time I was on my bike I felt whole, I felt like myself. I didn’t feel I needed to prove anything, I was free to be whoever I desired to be. I felt alive in ways I had never experienced with running. I started to discover other ways I could be active on a consistent basis that wasn’t competitive, but in ways that nurtured my soul.
I love that I took a break from running because in that break I discovered my love for cycling, boxing and yoga. They’ve opened up my world in ways I am beyond thankful for.
Just because you stop doing something you love doesn’t mean you are doing anything wrong. Be open to the possibilities that present itself. Try new things. See your life differently, see the potential it has to teach you amazing things. Allow your heart to guide you back to where you belong. Take your time and be kind to yourself during the process. You’ll get through it and once you do you’ll feel stronger, confident and wiser in your life and the choices that present themselves in your life.
Healing is your own journey. There is no right or wrong way, there is only your way. Sometimes you need to take a break and that’s okay. Life won’t be the same as you heal, but the more trust and patience you have in the process, in the transition from trauma to healing, the more you will realize how beautiful this new life is that you have actively creating for yourself. Healing will close doors, but it will also open doors. Remember you have choices and no matter what happens it will be okay. Just be open to the possibilities.