Anxiety and depression are a natural and normal experiences that every person will go through at some point in their life. In the western culture we label anxiety and depression and other emotional reactions as “disorders” rather than looking at them as natural reactions to our body telling us to simply love ourself.
For years I thought there was something “wrong” with me when really everything I was experiencing was actually normal. Even the suicidal thoughts. What I have found in my healing journey is that I had to get out of my head and tap into my heart to discover that all the answers are within me. There was no cure only wisdom I needed to discover for myself. To find peace and freedom we must discover our pain, be aware of our weaknesses, and believe that we deserve to heal and discover who we really are. We all carry within us a wisdom that will guide us to where we belong, but we also must be open, honest and patient during the process.
We do everything we can to ignore these emotions, numb them, or run away from them, rather to sit with them and become closer to our pain and self created suffering. We run away from what we don’t know, what we don’t understand. This is why we can become suicidal. We completely lose touch with ourself and our pain to the point that our mind and body have to dramatically push us to acknowledge our wounds through suicidal thoughts so we can become kinder, loving people to ourself. Suicidal thoughts are pushing us to discover who we really are. They are not easy to work through, but they are necessary to get through. We can and we will get through these feelings. Just like everything, even our thoughts and feelings will pass. Give yourself the space to feel so they can flow out of you like a river.
Rather than look at your emotional state of being as “not normal” or a “disorder” look at it as a a chance to slowly learn how to love yourself deep down. Give yourself time. Be patient. Give yourself the space and attention you would just as you do for someone you love. Be honest, but gentle. It gets better. Most importantly believe in yourself and the ability for your heart to set you free. Give yourself the chance to feel the pain so you can grow. You are meant to grow and change. You are meant to heal.
Most importantly remember you are not alone. We’re all struggling with these issues on some level and so everyone we come across is an opportunity to reconnect and remind ourself as small and insignificant we feel we are all on a unique journey. Take time to breathe so you can find room to love.