Loosing my Mind to fall in Love with my Heartfeatured

Photo on 12-12-14 at 10.54 AM #3For years I struggled with my mind. I hated it. I couldn’t sleep, couldn’t think straight, and couldn’t make sense of what was going on up there, in my mind. At times I thought I was certain I must be crazy, that I wasn’t normal. I perceived a reality that I thought was wrong simply because others could not understand.

And then one day I lost it. Completely lost it. I wasn’t actually living my life; I was running away from my life, not being present with it. Presence requires not thought, not action, but love. Pure authentic love.

I started reading books that melted my heart. I listed to music that inspired me to smile as my heart opened. I started writing in journal after journal. Poems, short stories, diary entries about the loving woman I knew I was.

I didn’t need to convince my mind, I needed to feel the love pour through my veins and build my bones.

And It worked. I fell in love. I fell in love a way I never imagined.

I remember running home to myself for the first time. My arms wide open, my heart ready to receive, my body in a state of peace and bliss. I was home. I was always home, but this was the first time I actually believed it, because it came from my heart.

What I realized is the heart doesn’t lie: it brings you back to your own truth.

I lost my mind to fall in my love with my heart and it was worth it. I am guided by life now, not lost, not confused, not alone. Loneliness no longer exist in my mind as my ultimate state of being, just a feeling that will pass in time. It doesn’t mean I don’t feel alone at times, or sad or angry, but now in my heart I know that in time everything will pass,with lots of patience, and joyful emotions will shower me.

I don’t regret loosing my mind to fall in love with my heart. It’s changed my life for the better. It empowered me to become a more loving and gentle person and to open my eyes to a new perspective to a life worth living and loving for.

You are here to love and be loved. Let your mind run wild because it will lead you back to your heart and there you will find your peace and empowerment. 

Enjoy the journey of discovering a life worth loving. 

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Ruth

Feeding The Heart is a blog and resource dedicated to empowerment for whole heart living after trauma. I’m a writer, trauma sensitive-informed yoga teacher, and a trauma survivor here to share my story and journey of holistically healing.

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