Colors, like features, follow the changes of the emotions. -Pablo Picasso
This weekend I ran the Color Run with my brother and it was the best way to start a beautiful spring Saturday morning. At one point there was a little boy running next to me who said, “I am so happy right now.” So genuine. So real. I’ve run hundreds of 5K, but this really is the happiest 5k you will find out there. I highly recommend you look into running one if it comes to your city, or one near you (check here).
After all the fun running and colorful activities I began to reflect. Sometimes you have to find ways to color your world. It’s actually really important.
For a long time I woke up without a colorful vision, without curiosity to explore the world around me. I was lost in my own shadows and darkness. I lost the color in life and indeed that is where joy manifests itself.
For a few years I lost my joy of running. It triggered flashbacks and things I didn’t how to cope with, so I just stopped running. I thought by not running my triggers would go away, but they didn’t. I became sadder. I realized that I needed to re-explore my love of running. I needed to put the color back into running, my own way.
Finding color in your life after trauma occurs takes a lot of practice and willingness open yourself up to seeing the world in a different way. One that acknowledges the darkness, but also acknowledges the colors that surround us daily.
It’s easy to get stuck in a “trauma rut”. We stay in it because it feels safe and comfortable, but it’s not always the best for our development. Sometimes we need to do things that make us uncomfortable and help us to discover joy and happiness again.
As a survivor of trauma healing has been a very colorful journey for me. At times I resisted wanting to color my world, because I didn’t feel like I deserved it. I believed others did, but not me. I thought I was better being washed out, not noticed, hidden, black and white. As I began a journey of self healing I started to see myself, and the world, through a range of different colors. I wanted the oranges, the purples, the greens, the blues to sparkle my world. I wanted to touch it, to feel it, to never get go of it. I wanted to learn to color my world again.
Keep finding ways to color your world. As you begin to find the color of life again, life gets even better. The beautiful thing is color is constantly around us, and it belongs in our life. I take a daily walk and just focus on the different shades of blue I can see in the sky or the shades of greens and browns in the woods. Every time I feel more alive and closer to myself. Color is very healing.
Explore the colors in your life, in your landscape, in your food, in your home, on your clothes. Have a colorful day every once in awhile. Embrace the reds, blues, greens, purples, oranges, yellows: they are all part of you. It might be the most healing thing you do for yourself in your journey of healing and self discovery.