Ruth’s Story

Hello, Namaste-my name is Ruth and thank you for checking out my blog.

I have a story to share.

11264876_501988169975798_274590283_nI started this blog as a way to document my journey of healing from trauma holistically and to share it with others.

After being a collegiate athlete, studying and working in the non-profit, economic, social entrepreneurship, and academic world for 8 years I left it and became a trauma sensitive yoga teacher, writer and author. It wasn’t my dream at that time in my life, but at 24 it became a deep internal calling.

I am a certified (RYT) trauma sensitive-informed yoga teacher, mindfulness meditation and Reiki energy practitioner. I have studied and taught in India, Costa Rica, Guatemala, Nicaragua, Chicago and Michigan with other 500 training hours over the last 7 years.

I’ve helped start and launch dozens of non-profits and social enterprises that focus on rebuilding and empowering local communities around the world and The Breathing Room became my first social business. All of my experiences have lead me to create a life that honors my voice and heart. It has been a life changing journey for me as I learn to turn the trauma I experienced into inspiration and empowerment for others.

18191645_10158712414165694_1536836255_nThe truth is I’ve struggled with mental health and trauma since I was a child. Everything from suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety and sleep insomnia. Writing saved my life and yoga healed me in a way that inspired to become a teacher and work with other trauma survivors (read my piece in Elephant Journal). I’ve explored holistic ways to heal for the last 10 years.

cropped-11828677_10155914765585694_5274756639482445893_n-e1465306102508.jpgMy story isn’t one that focuses on victimhood, but rather survivorship and the ability to move forward and integrate tragedy and trauma into life. I am a survivor of college sexual assault survivor and childhood gang rape.

It’s not an easy story to share, but I believe it’s important for other survivors to know they are not alone. I share my story of transforming into a survivor and taking a courageous journey of healing (read my piece in the New York Times) in hopes that other survivors can know it is possible to heal from sexual violence.

Sexual assault is an issue that is silenced and by sharing my story of surviving and thriving I hope to inspire other survivors to know they are resilient and that together we can heal (check out the book Unsafe On Any Campus? in which I was honored to write the foreword for). I have also written for The New York Times, Detroit Free Press, Battle Creek Enquirer, Lansing State Journal, Tallahassee Democrat, Center for Justice & Reconciliation and other outlets to promote the healing of social issues and to share my journey of healing from violence.

13151590_10154587422815839_4550007129972697456_nIn the summer of 2016 I lost my best friend and husband to cancer. Jake (read my column on him) was a 32 year old veteran who served in Iraq and Afghanistan. I met him as he was transitioning back from his third deployment and healing from the trauma of war and integrating back into civilian life. In the coming months we would end up falling in love with each other thousands of miles away.

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In the spring of 2016 we found out Jake’s cancer had spread to the lungs and had become terminal. The doctor’s gave him less than a year, but it ended up only becoming months. We spent the rest of our time together traveling, married and in love. He has become my biggest inspiration as I move forward in my healing journey.

It is in these blog posts I look to provide a raw and authentic view at healing trauma, grief and moving forward one step at a time.

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“A flower does not think of competing to the flower next to it. It just blooms.” -Zen Shin

I’ve lived in the Middle East, eastern Africa, Asia, Central America and I’ve traveled to South America and and all around North America. I’ve been to dozens of countries and immersed myself in different cultures to learn and experience life in a different way. I continue to travel and study human resilience and holistic approaches to healing trauma and feeding the heart.

I’ve learned that post traumatic stress (PTS) and depression don’t just ‘go away’, but they do have the potential to transform an individual into their highest and healthful potential. Battling the darkness of my mind has taught me how healing it is when we choose to surrender to our heart and no longer become attached the the story line of our thoughts.

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Stay in the center of the circle and let all things take their course.” -Lao Tzu

I am humbled and grateful for the people and healers I have met along the way from the East to West. They have all lovingly challenged me to discover the importance of opening my heart and healing one day at a time.

Let’s grow and heal together.

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“Close your eyes. Fall in love. Stay there.” -Rumi

With all my heart,
Ruthie